Why Us?

Starting this blog isn't easy. Most of what has come to mind since Gray was born was 'Why Us?' So, why not start there. Why Us? What did we do? I thought we did everything right and we did. We got married, we have great jobs, we own our home and our own cars... I did everything by the book according to all those pregnancy novels... I took my vitamins, I went to EVERY appointment.... and we still had a baby 10 weeks early with multiple health issues. So, why us? While we know that question will never fully be answered we strive to find the why.

Why do we need a 'why' for everything in life? Can't we just go with the flow, accept the changes and embrace life? It's never that easy. I asked myself that while sitting in the cold hospital room with a million blankets praying to have just ONE good day... why do I need a reason? Why do I need to know the 'why'?

That day I changed my whole perspective on the hand we had been dealt. I was going to embrace having a son with multiple health issues. I was going to enjoy every moment I had with him, even when the moments were never 'great'. Everyday was a new thing, a new physician, a new diagnosis, and many times... a new mystery. I went with them all. I sat by his side advocating for him every step of the way. It wasn't until then when I was able to see clearly. GOD chose me to be his Mom. He chose US to be his parents. He knew WE could handle it.

So tomorrow when you are needing to know the 'why', take a step back. Accept the things you cannot change and do everything in your power to just embrace that moment you have in life.